Stop calling your self sad. wtf? Do you think having great friends online is sad? No its not. People online can always be better than your friends. Also, stop talking about how you seem or how you may look. "I sound weird" No. Stop letting your self down.
You have to always think what to talk. People here may love the community and love most players compared to the real world. If you say its sad for you to have that, it also means you think people with the same identities are sad as well. Don't talk things you don't feel. You are not weird don't worry.
I mean, the people you met first always might seem the best people.
I do believe there are countless annoying players that does many things that really discomforts me. But there are others, with way better ideas and thoughts. The average age of the player base on the server has decreased tremendously. 2-3 years ago, there were only so many mature players but most left and I cannot really find them here anymore. But it will be alright, Keep your ideas strait and try to have a great friends. We are always here to help.