This is still pretty fresh on my mind so I might as well try and get some of it into words while I can.
~4 months ago I was inevitably “caught cheating” on my then girlfriend. This news got to her and things kicked off like I expected it to, after all I fucked up pretty badly and hurt her so everything was deserved in my opinion plus this is the first large scale event I’m negatively involved in so there’s a naturally a snowball effect & traction was gained as a result. I however do not like it when a simple situation branches off into ten variations of the original and then retold with confidence hence this message.
I’m not here to plead my case as if I’ve done nothing wrong or whine about how I’ve experienced life afterwards, this is simply a list of things I did and didn’t do.
- I cheated, held multiple explicit conversations with different people. I am a minor so naturally almost every individual I spoke to explicitly was also a minor, I never strayed further than a ~2 year gap in ages. Someone with a decent following holds one of these conversations and people will act as if high school relationships do not exist and aren’t normalized in society, not sure why this is even something that gets brought up
- I apologized to the people I might’ve hurt doing this directly and haven’t communicated with any of them recently
- I never “searched” or “preyed” on anyone lol this shit is actually a joke and has 0 logical backing considering almost everyone involved approached me first or we met through mutual friends. I’m not hunting down people or filtering through them nor was I always the one who initiated conversations. These people had 0 binding towards me and they were offered nothing in return for anything- everything was done of complete free will for both parties
- I lied about my age to the girl I was holding a relationship with, turning 16 I had claimed to already be 16 and as a result of that she thought I was a year older than I actually was meaning she thought I turned 18 in February 2021 but prior to that whilst our relationship continued there was a full understanding between us that I was a minor- I refuse to have people lie about this publicly and make up whatever fairytale they believe makes them look best
"I could continue that list but I don’t need others to evaluate my mistakes nor validate me for what I’m doing right. I know where I’m at and where I want to be. I’m no saint but I held off from posting anything for months in fear it would further negatively impact the lives of people who I want the best for but **** does constantly being bashed with things that don’t add up to the truth get frustrating after a while.
Been seeing a lot of controversy regarding Invaded so I’ll include an explanation- I maintained no power at InvadedLands and was only granted a temporary staff rank on an alternate account so I could access the build server for commissioned work that was accepted by the build team- work they are paid for. Whilst I had this rank I logged onto the server less than 5 times. The only thing I did with moderation power was mute 2 accounts for spamming a racial slur in chat for several minutes whilst no one else was doing anything then promptly logged off.
People expressed discomfort with this so I was told I had my permissions removed and appropriately so. This later went public for no apparent reason, as if I always had power or was affiliated with the network.
You know who you are if you’re spreading delusions about me & requesting answers from people who have no affiliation, I’ve tried extremely hard to avoid naming you in this message as a result of basic human decency. You’re forever stuck on what I was and unable to accept me as a living breathing human being, so be it but stop involving those unrelated & lying on my name.
I’m sincerely sorry to those who looked up to me, I know I’m painted horribly for what I did and I know it’s warranted but I’m still moving forward and growing as a person so I hope that amounts to something.
Best of luck in life and thanks for reading all the way through to those who did, regardless of what you think of me.
‘till next time"
- MegaPVP
