Actually I didn't even see this LMAO but if you REALLY want a response to this,
When I said: "I could go on, but I don't want to defend myself too much because I know I say stuff here and there but like I've said before, I am not staff yet, and apps don't even open for about another 4-5 months." I was referring to some of the stuff I have said on the forums. I know I am wrong in some areas, but like I said, its 1-2 things here or there for like every 100 messages, and it's all jokes. You don't know who knows me and knows what is a joke or not, so you aren't going to see it the way me and that person sees it.
I am tired of trying to explain toxicity to everyone, I feel like I have gone in circles with you guys. I think @29planets did a good job explaining it on twitter today, saying: People just do not understand themselves so all the aggravation is reflected in trying to push you down. Toxicity is nothing but not knowing how to deal with ourselves/others problems. Why it is always good to have a "positive" group of friends who actually helps. Remember that.
I am never one to not know how to deal with frustration and anger in a situation. I simply log off and leave if I get upset, if I don't then it is typically for one of the reasons I stated earlier. I don't push anyone down at all ever. The ONLY comment I have made in that was was like I said earlier about BBH on the forums, it wasn't a joke though, and some people will see it as toxicity, others will see it as me being true to reality. If I were to show you what was said, the proof I have, you would know why I said what I said. It isn't trying to start an argument, it is to try and enlighten everyone else to the lies they are being told. Some people actually believe he is an angel. I am just going to say, you guys can respond to this, I am done responding to the toxicity stuff because I am not. I was muted ONCE for toxicity and I happened to have 9 mutes before so I got a perm mute. At 10 mutes it is a perm mute, regardless of the offense. I had Apex look at my offenses yesterday, that was the only one for toxicity. Rest were spam and stream links. If you would like to argue with me more, my dm's are always open and I would be happy to continue there, but there is no need to really considering I was just trying to say goodbye to everyone for now.
I think I do well on the forums, I joke around many times in off-topic that is about it, or I will say stuff, for example I am assuming you are referencing BBH's intro thread, because it is true and people don't know that because he has painted an image in the mind of others, and since he has been perm muted for ages, no one even knows. I could start stuff all I want but it's not the right thing to do. What he has done has crossed SEVERAL lines, way beyond even toxicity, I'm talking racism and sexual harassment not only to players but to staff. There is a reason he got denied, but that is not for discussion.
I don't think it, I know it. People only assume after seeing one post or message, but those 1-2 messages here and there don't add up to the several hundreds of actual responses and messages, whether that be positivity, or advice, help, whatever it may be that I do on the forums, because I do A LOT of it and if you don't see that, then you clearly don't know me. I am sorry, but you don't. This isn't boasting or gloating but I have been praised by staff for my forums and what I do, so I think it is safe to say that thought on me and what I do on the forums is false.
I don't credit the kids advice because like I said he doesn't or didn't know me. He joined the forums two hours before making a judgement of me over 700 messages on the forums.
When I said: "I could go on, but I don't want to defend myself too much because I know I say stuff here and there but like I've said before, I am not staff yet, and apps don't even open for about another 4-5 months." I was referring to some of the stuff I have said on the forums. I know I am wrong in some areas, but like I said, its 1-2 things here or there for like every 100 messages, and it's all jokes. You don't know who knows me and knows what is a joke or not, so you aren't going to see it the way me and that person sees it.
Again, banter and toxic are two different things. Apps are WAY out from now, I am a PLAYER not a representative of the server. I only represent the council which is unrelated to the actual server. When it comes to the council I act as professional as possible, and it shows. I was told by a staff member to not really worry about too much right now anyways because the apps are so far out. Again, I am NOT a toxic person. It's all about perception. You can take whatever message you want and use it against me, but I can pretty much guarantee you there was either me knowing the person, being in a call with them and making a joke to get a voice reaction, or heat of the moment. Toxicity comes in SO many forms, but take it how you want. I guess that means I can call Hamoka toxic now because when i logged on yesterday she said "1pick say 1 for a free oreo"?? That is considered toxicity, but she KNOWS me, and I don't care. You guys ALL really need to relax.
I am tired of trying to explain toxicity to everyone, I feel like I have gone in circles with you guys. I think @29planets did a good job explaining it on twitter today, saying: People just do not understand themselves so all the aggravation is reflected in trying to push you down. Toxicity is nothing but not knowing how to deal with ourselves/others problems. Why it is always good to have a "positive" group of friends who actually helps. Remember that.
I am never one to not know how to deal with frustration and anger in a situation. I simply log off and leave if I get upset, if I don't then it is typically for one of the reasons I stated earlier. I don't push anyone down at all ever. The ONLY comment I have made in that was was like I said earlier about BBH on the forums, it wasn't a joke though, and some people will see it as toxicity, others will see it as me being true to reality. If I were to show you what was said, the proof I have, you would know why I said what I said. It isn't trying to start an argument, it is to try and enlighten everyone else to the lies they are being told. Some people actually believe he is an angel. I am just going to say, you guys can respond to this, I am done responding to the toxicity stuff because I am not. I was muted ONCE for toxicity and I happened to have 9 mutes before so I got a perm mute. At 10 mutes it is a perm mute, regardless of the offense. I had Apex look at my offenses yesterday, that was the only one for toxicity. Rest were spam and stream links. If you would like to argue with me more, my dm's are always open and I would be happy to continue there, but there is no need to really considering I was just trying to say goodbye to everyone for now.
