I just wanted to start off and say that I know it is not smart to have a person post a thread on behalf of me whilst I'm forum banned, we both understand the possible consequences that could be a result of these actions and I understand they may risk being punished themselves as a result of making a thread for me. I just feel like I have to apologize forwhat I had done, and I can't simply just do that in discord as I don't have many of the people I want to say sorry to added on discord. I am not doing this so I can appeal anything easier, and I really would like to see nobody say #freesubsy or say to staff it wasn't right to ban me. My ban is completely justified and it is really just a wake up call to me that I really do not have a very large filter at times.
I'd like to tell the story of my ban really quick: I'm really not entirely sure which thread it was between the one Ninvm made or the one Calluex(Lucas) made, it was probably both from what I believe, as well all the other toxic, inappropriate, sexualized, spam, and other uncalled for posts I had made prior to these two posts. I truly do not recall Lucas' thread much, I just know I was very toxic and care-free to him and I apologize. For Ninvm's thread, if I recall each thread correctly, he was the one that made the thread about the coronavirus. I literally can't stand racism, whether it be against my own race, or not. I do not have any regret for what I had said in the post, I was being true and fare within the given conditions. I am not saying it is not ban-worthy, I truly only wanted it to get into his head that it isn't tolerated at all, in the community, or in general living standards. I know a few people backed me up, I was definitely the one that went overboard with being the first post of the thread and I didn't think it would ever get into his brain any other way unless I really expressed how hurt he could make people with those remarks. I may be apologizing for a lot of things I had done, but this is not one of them at all and I would do it 100 times over if I could. I had previously talked to him in DMs and tried to support him through when he was in need of support due to his father's absense and it just really hurt that he went to make aracist post after all the support people had given him.
I also wanted to say that I really appreciated seeing all the posts regarding my absense, I appreciate it a lot and tbh I never thought many people would care about me being forum banned, but thank you for caring, I love and appreciate every single one of you, each for many different reasons. With each toxic person, there are ten kind people, and that's all you could ever ask for in a community. People don't notice all the little things each person in the community is doing for one another and it is so wholesome if you pay attention to little things people do in chat to give people something to do to enjoy their stay at InvadedLands more. If someone is called a random, I would love it so much if you let them know they're welcome at invaded and feel like it's the community for them, we should not disencourage new players from continue playing in our community. People say that this community is toxic, but it's truly only a few people, such as myself, and there are way more people that will help diffuse each given situation and I really love you guys and care about you guys more than I can describe. This community is a place where little timmy can come home to after a long, stressful day and have fun and relax in, and you guys are the reason in which little timmy can do that in the first place. To whoever is reading this, whether it be the staff or players, I love you and you make the community whole and a great place to talk to a diverse group of people. ❤
Regarding apologizing for individual people, I'm sure there's a lot more to cover but here are a few I feel like I had been harsh to.
@S0V You had given me so many chances in the discord, so fucking many, and I feel like I acted as if I didn't respect you each time you let me off easy. I am so sorry that I had made your job harder, you volunteered for this, you shouldn't have to deal with this, you just want to have a fun volunteering experience and for me to basically go and retaliate and cause countless problems within the discord I just feel like I didn't do my part at all and was very childish. I am really glad you banned me in the discord, and I really hate myself because I didn't even wake up and think about my actions after I was literally banned from basically 1/3rd of the community. I'm genuinely sorry, I just wanted to know that like I said back then, I am still here for you and if you ever want to chat in discord, add me on it and I'm 100% open to talk about personal things, or just chill on discord. I have finally opened my eyes and saw who I had become and I didn't like old subsy. I appreciate you a lot and I will always respect you
@Wqlk I had lied to you in a private forums conversation, I know I apologized on discord, but I still feel like I miss things when I apologize one on one. I remember the reply I had made to you stating I have been warned on forums, I know how apologetic I sounded within the post and you were super nice to me afterwards and I truly meant to be genuine but I didn't act on my words whatsoever, and I really am sorry for how I continue to act in the same manner as before. I will act more like my age, I promise to you. I will openly say, I'm completely aware I will continue troll here and there, that being if I do get unbanned on the forums, but it will not even be close to how I had acted before. I don't want to say I will be completely mature as it would be fake, I will still post some things, however, I will no longer be toxic, I'm not really a toxic person, I remember saying to S0V that I argued with a guy in discord because I was defending someone, but I really think I just wanted to let some emotion out, and I'm entirely done with letting my emotions out on other people. I appreciate you a lot wqlk. Stay wholesome and a mazing.
@Periys I had called you Skeppy's slave in a very insensitive way, of course it was a joke, but a joke like that shouldn't be tolerated and that had ultimately got me banned from the discord, I'm sorry. You're a really nice guy and everyone should show you the respect you deserve. <3
@ninvm, @Calleux(Lucas) It looks like you both had gotten forum banned as well, I do apologize for how severe I was to both of you, you guys just needed someone to let you know that your actions and words have power, and although it may not seem like it, both of you guys could be hurting a lot of people when saying the things you had said and I was unfortunately the one to be the person and let you know what it's really like when you say things like that. I hope you guys both get through the things you were going through, I am still open to supporting you when you need it, same with everyone else in the community, my discord is Subsy#5062 if you want to ever talk to me about your life and I am here for everyone in the community.
@casey I'm sorry if all of this affects you in any way, you know I care about you (not in an edating way ._.) and I just liked spicing up forums a bit, I'm sorry if anything I had done made you uncomfortable in any way and I'm glad you're an amazing friend ?
@Neptune888 @Candi ndi I apologize for doing this right now: To all the staff reading this, please carefully evaluate each of these girls closely and carefully, I am most definitely not the most credible person, but I heard someone say a rumor in which nobody would be picked for staff, and I really feel like you would be making a mistake if you chose nobody when there are people such as candi and neptune. My friend @JamesJustJoined had recently been denied for toxicity while he's the most kind guy I have ever met, and no I am not opposed to his denial, I just feel like you really are focusing too hard on the negatives than the positives these people offer to the community. If Neptune and Candi (I truly don't know if you're still pending or not but sorry if you're not
) don't get accepted, I feel like you are not evaluating the applicants close enough, and of course I am going to be biased but from someone that has seen them in chat a lot, both ladies are very competent and helpful around the server. I understand there is more to being a staff, but I'd much rather not list off each individual trait these two have to offer to the server.
I know I have many apologies for many more people that I am missing, I am sorry if I did something to you and hadn't apologized for it, I really am sorry though.
Disclaimer: I will not make anyone make another post for me again, this is a one time thing and the thread might just get deleted anyways. If it does get deleted, to the people that see this, I love you and I wish you all the best, I know I see a lot of you on the server but I don't usually say how much I care about you guys. I love you all ❤
Subsy
I'd like to tell the story of my ban really quick: I'm really not entirely sure which thread it was between the one Ninvm made or the one Calluex(Lucas) made, it was probably both from what I believe, as well all the other toxic, inappropriate, sexualized, spam, and other uncalled for posts I had made prior to these two posts. I truly do not recall Lucas' thread much, I just know I was very toxic and care-free to him and I apologize. For Ninvm's thread, if I recall each thread correctly, he was the one that made the thread about the coronavirus. I literally can't stand racism, whether it be against my own race, or not. I do not have any regret for what I had said in the post, I was being true and fare within the given conditions. I am not saying it is not ban-worthy, I truly only wanted it to get into his head that it isn't tolerated at all, in the community, or in general living standards. I know a few people backed me up, I was definitely the one that went overboard with being the first post of the thread and I didn't think it would ever get into his brain any other way unless I really expressed how hurt he could make people with those remarks. I may be apologizing for a lot of things I had done, but this is not one of them at all and I would do it 100 times over if I could. I had previously talked to him in DMs and tried to support him through when he was in need of support due to his father's absense and it just really hurt that he went to make aracist post after all the support people had given him.
I also wanted to say that I really appreciated seeing all the posts regarding my absense, I appreciate it a lot and tbh I never thought many people would care about me being forum banned, but thank you for caring, I love and appreciate every single one of you, each for many different reasons. With each toxic person, there are ten kind people, and that's all you could ever ask for in a community. People don't notice all the little things each person in the community is doing for one another and it is so wholesome if you pay attention to little things people do in chat to give people something to do to enjoy their stay at InvadedLands more. If someone is called a random, I would love it so much if you let them know they're welcome at invaded and feel like it's the community for them, we should not disencourage new players from continue playing in our community. People say that this community is toxic, but it's truly only a few people, such as myself, and there are way more people that will help diffuse each given situation and I really love you guys and care about you guys more than I can describe. This community is a place where little timmy can come home to after a long, stressful day and have fun and relax in, and you guys are the reason in which little timmy can do that in the first place. To whoever is reading this, whether it be the staff or players, I love you and you make the community whole and a great place to talk to a diverse group of people. ❤
Regarding apologizing for individual people, I'm sure there's a lot more to cover but here are a few I feel like I had been harsh to.
@S0V You had given me so many chances in the discord, so fucking many, and I feel like I acted as if I didn't respect you each time you let me off easy. I am so sorry that I had made your job harder, you volunteered for this, you shouldn't have to deal with this, you just want to have a fun volunteering experience and for me to basically go and retaliate and cause countless problems within the discord I just feel like I didn't do my part at all and was very childish. I am really glad you banned me in the discord, and I really hate myself because I didn't even wake up and think about my actions after I was literally banned from basically 1/3rd of the community. I'm genuinely sorry, I just wanted to know that like I said back then, I am still here for you and if you ever want to chat in discord, add me on it and I'm 100% open to talk about personal things, or just chill on discord. I have finally opened my eyes and saw who I had become and I didn't like old subsy. I appreciate you a lot and I will always respect you
@Wqlk I had lied to you in a private forums conversation, I know I apologized on discord, but I still feel like I miss things when I apologize one on one. I remember the reply I had made to you stating I have been warned on forums, I know how apologetic I sounded within the post and you were super nice to me afterwards and I truly meant to be genuine but I didn't act on my words whatsoever, and I really am sorry for how I continue to act in the same manner as before. I will act more like my age, I promise to you. I will openly say, I'm completely aware I will continue troll here and there, that being if I do get unbanned on the forums, but it will not even be close to how I had acted before. I don't want to say I will be completely mature as it would be fake, I will still post some things, however, I will no longer be toxic, I'm not really a toxic person, I remember saying to S0V that I argued with a guy in discord because I was defending someone, but I really think I just wanted to let some emotion out, and I'm entirely done with letting my emotions out on other people. I appreciate you a lot wqlk. Stay wholesome and a mazing.
@Periys I had called you Skeppy's slave in a very insensitive way, of course it was a joke, but a joke like that shouldn't be tolerated and that had ultimately got me banned from the discord, I'm sorry. You're a really nice guy and everyone should show you the respect you deserve. <3
@ninvm, @Calleux(Lucas) It looks like you both had gotten forum banned as well, I do apologize for how severe I was to both of you, you guys just needed someone to let you know that your actions and words have power, and although it may not seem like it, both of you guys could be hurting a lot of people when saying the things you had said and I was unfortunately the one to be the person and let you know what it's really like when you say things like that. I hope you guys both get through the things you were going through, I am still open to supporting you when you need it, same with everyone else in the community, my discord is Subsy#5062 if you want to ever talk to me about your life and I am here for everyone in the community.
@casey I'm sorry if all of this affects you in any way, you know I care about you (not in an edating way ._.) and I just liked spicing up forums a bit, I'm sorry if anything I had done made you uncomfortable in any way and I'm glad you're an amazing friend ?
@Neptune888 @Candi ndi I apologize for doing this right now: To all the staff reading this, please carefully evaluate each of these girls closely and carefully, I am most definitely not the most credible person, but I heard someone say a rumor in which nobody would be picked for staff, and I really feel like you would be making a mistake if you chose nobody when there are people such as candi and neptune. My friend @JamesJustJoined had recently been denied for toxicity while he's the most kind guy I have ever met, and no I am not opposed to his denial, I just feel like you really are focusing too hard on the negatives than the positives these people offer to the community. If Neptune and Candi (I truly don't know if you're still pending or not but sorry if you're not
) don't get accepted, I feel like you are not evaluating the applicants close enough, and of course I am going to be biased but from someone that has seen them in chat a lot, both ladies are very competent and helpful around the server. I understand there is more to being a staff, but I'd much rather not list off each individual trait these two have to offer to the server.I know I have many apologies for many more people that I am missing, I am sorry if I did something to you and hadn't apologized for it, I really am sorry though.
Disclaimer: I will not make anyone make another post for me again, this is a one time thing and the thread might just get deleted anyways. If it does get deleted, to the people that see this, I love you and I wish you all the best, I know I see a lot of you on the server but I don't usually say how much I care about you guys. I love you all ❤
Subsy
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